If I had known my bones
Would need carrying
I would have never built
A home inside your heart
A burden unlike the one
I carried in your tears
An ocean of stories
I couldn’t let go of
And now the weight of yesteryear
Anchors us to one another
As we both beg the other
To cut the rope
©Entirety 2017
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Over the past year especially, it’s taking me some time to realize that a lot of life is crazy and chaotic but there are always things in my control.
Weather I cannot control, what comes through the door at work I cannot control, there is even some pain you cannot control. But surrendering to thinking everything is out of your control is defeatest, it’s an excuse to blame everyone or everything for circumstance, and never taking charge over the things you can.
I chose two things: to accept the things I cannot change (to quote a famous AA prayer), and to take control of the few things I can. I can breathe, purposefully. I can block a troublemaker or not. I can pick up the phone, or not answer it. I can change jobs, or I can deal with my attitude about my present one.
the point is, more is in my control than I actually care to admit sometimes, because admitting this, means I am being honest that I am not a victim, and have a few things in my life over which I can control…even when it feels like it’s all going to shit.
#thinkingoutloud
Scar tissue
Is never as strong
As the flesh
That lay unscathed
The one before the wound
But the muscle underneath
That can be stronger
Than ever before
Scar tissue reminds us
We are not invincible
Scar tissue reminds us
That life
That love
And even hope
Can be fragile
But the spirit that lays beneath
This is the constant
We should hold on to
And we can build it
Or let it grow weak
But stronger
Is always in your control
©Entirety 2017
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I keep searching
In hopes of finding you
But cemetery secrets
Are rather coming through
And it’s only your ghost
That still lives here
And why should I be surprised
That the secret
That I still love you
Is written everywhere
But on the stone
That holds your name
©Entirety 2017
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